hello guys,,
i am writing this blog to express the feeling of being placed.. being placed simply feels serene and quiet.
Throughout my life, i was always divided over doing 2 things at time. to add to the misery i never succeeded at any of them. During school days, i always wanted to be a sportsman, but i terribly sucked at sports..
I used to be physically present in class room or at study table at my home, but my mind wondering outside on grounds. then as expected i was neither an academic achiever nor a good sportsperson.
As i grew up, my hunger for success had also increased, so without thinking or planning and showing least concern about what i want. ..i went ahead and joined the quizzing community in my school..quiz being a complete non sporting event . some how i found a place there. i won almost all the quizzes i participated in--right from interhouse to interschool to other individual participations..now how i got into this quizzes is a very big secret i would like to confess..
It was, when i was in 7th standard. my best friend had got selected for interhouse quiz.(pluto)..i was as usual silking around, wandering around in corridors and playing with my magnifying glasses((i mean my specs)..god kuch dena hota toh dhung ka dena tha..yeah chasmaa kya hain yaar...
anyway.. so yash came to me and told me that he got selected for the quiz. i was very happy for him and jealous at the same time as whole school , the new-zealand(i hope my school mates remember)..was going to watch him on stage..yash was very much a nerd and i was sure he wud win..i guy who knows mythology and history/civics like abcd is bound to win..this thought made me still......^&*% , at very young age, the child in us is ready to do any thing to seek attention.. so now i had to had to get into this qizzing as it was the only possible thing i could achieve..i wasnt that much of a dud..i used to read newspaper for sports.. yash took me to our house captain for selection,,"The Trick"----- Yash had told me all the questions and there answers b4hand..the house captain was $%^& enough to ask me the same questions..i answered all the questions correctly, both he and our house teacher were amazed by this and took me in the team...
We were bound to win as yash answered all mythology and current affairs correctly, i answered all the general awareness and sports..well now i was in the team..finally i had won something..i got carried away. quiz after quiz, i read and read and read..i won more..i gave up on cricket completely...from 8th standard i had left playing ..:(
Now after school i had completely lost on sports, again the battle in me began...i should do iit or i should just give cet and do some other extra curriculur activity...... .. i decided i'll do IIT..my father asked if i wud like to go and study in pune..i declined......this was the biggest mistake i have done till now......i was scared to stay alone , away from mom..whole 2 years of inter (supposed to be precious in every teen's life), i spent them with the biggest morons in abad......the teachers..i hate them to call my teachers...were just money eating machines..
eventually, i was left alone, ...no proper friend to study with, no teacher to teach, ..and finally no iit, no nit....i was forutnate ough to get into VIT (if it hadnt been VIT, i dont know what i would have done)
Its everybody's wish to have a new start with new college., forget the past, live peacefuly and have fun...but, my bad luck ...my sick past followed me to pune also...
in the first year. i made new friends...though my % was less. it did not matter then, atleast i was a bit happy..sense of getting into a very decent college made me happy. the whole year, i spent in deciding whether to participate or not any any event .....again i did not participate in a single event..
the 2nd year started....again i had to make new friends..i realized all people i used to be with were from comp/elex/chem...the year began properly..i was again happy to start with fresh..as my score was consistently degrading after my 10th board..that tension to make things right had gripped me.. i was obsessed with all those loser thoughts..when u consistently fail at the same thing (in my case achieving marks), u tend to become habituated to losing, u stop believing in yourself..on top of that, if u r a loser in top institute, u r amongst the nobody in class....u r left alone.....again the same losing battle story. no marks, no people around, no other activities...it sucks big time...i felt like i stand nowhere..
things were going on ...when unusually i was selected to join our college edboard....i really dont know how those guys took me in..whatecer, i was now in a proper team..i worked very hard for the magazine....they call it slogging,,,but for me, it was something i needed to move my mind from all bakwaas...i met new people..these guys were totally uninterested in studies..wow..i had so much fun...no study topics at all...just crap to speak upon..this edboard was a collection of most creative and witty guys and gals in college..()..i loved it..i found people with same habits, hobbies and interests....i had found something to socialize..to my surprise my marks had improved a bit...
then the 3rd year had no significant doldrums,,,,things were smooth..i was core member of the edboard so my wish to do extra curriculur activities was fulfilled..i did robotics and also results improved so i was happy....now after 7thsem..i was again confused....but now the reason was different.....the basic question that had obsessed my mind was,,what will i be after 10 yrs.... at this age everyone feels to go and conquer this stupid world.....whether to sit for an IT company or wait for core companies, i am pretty sure to do an mba..i have no inclination towards instrumentation and control engg. it is a very specialised branch which normal people like me cant pursue for life...finally i took a stand myself and appeared for an IT company..
I am PLACED in Accenture, gives me a feeling of having a solid backup..the sense of having a backup simply relaxes my mind..now whatever happens whether i get a good cat score or not, its sure that i wont be sitting at home..the purpose of coming to pune is served though not completely...
now no more battles are going on in my mind.
no 2 things to think at a time....
.things appear to be very clear...i know appearances are deceptive, but for now...forget it...
finally i have started to enjoy my engineering. this is what is called BEING PLACED..
Thanks a lot for remaining in PLACE and reading such a long post....
