illusions

hi all, i am back after a month.. today i am exhausted.because of people around me, work load, college. i feel exhausted even if i look at a human being..its been soo long that i havent been left alone.. i feel the heavy need of nourishing my deteriorated inner peace..i thought why not write and see if it helps to chillax....

i want to write about illusions we come across in our daily life. i am not talking about mirage and that stupid stuff. i am talking about the illusions, our mind creates about people. i am talking about the situations that leave us shocked, dumbstruck and sometimes in awe.

There are so many things happening to us. Life's equation if full of different variables. Every variable(i have my own belief and theory) has its own effect on our Life. We being the social animals, always keep people in mind. While walking, talking, eating,etc, etc we have somebody in mind . " Dokyat itke loka houn jatat ki kantaloon apan mhanto, DOKYAT JAU NAKOS"..

Coming back to what i wanted to write, ILLUSIONS.. Everyday, we create many illusions in our mind. We create illusions about a person we have met., a person we have not met, a thing we have not seen. Majorly, our mind makes illusions about different activities, things, people. we also assume so many things in our day to day life, rightly speaking all those assumptions are again based on illusions.. We assume so and so person or thing to be in some fashion and create an illusion.
Now comes the real part, when the asumptions prove to be really wrong, or say when our illusiuon is totally askew. we tend to become more conscious or i would say simply angry.. without knowing things really?, we push our selves to believe in our illusions. what happens when out of nowhere our friend betrays you ?, what happens when a person you believe backstabs you ? ,, what happens when out of no known reason your good friend stops talking to you..? Phattt jatti hain...You feel like being deceived. you start bothering yourselves.
My mind is occupied with so many worries and questions , that i dont know what am i typing..

Life asks us to take everything as an experience and we are supposed to learn from those experiences....

From last few days, i am having my own share of very addicting illusions. i thought the newsletter work is going smoothly, but nothing is happening at that end. i had just started imagining about completing my project before time, my guide asked me start with new GPS.... just had i began to think that many things in my life are in place, m dreams collapsed like house f cards. some people just act to make others cry.. Just had i began to feel that few people are my friends and i had illusioned everything good about it, i was given a big shocker.. Talking about friendship, friendship is like a pendulum. the more u stretch it the more it goes away with you, but a simple misunderstanding , mild breakdown in pendulum wire, it retracks with that force, makes the friendship sink in no time.

Life would have been so easy if we were not given the ability to get illusioned...atleast i would have not bothered unnecesarily..In his world Each and everyone is a weirdo, and bet on this-- thats what makes this world a funny place to live in..Moral is , holding grudges is only waste of time. so, i request all you earthlings to simply forget your enemities and bond up and this will only make this sad place a still better place to live!!